Or so it seems that way to me. Lol.

Figures... the last time I entered a singing competition, I was ready to back out as soon as my friend & I got through the auditions. For some reason, auditions are incredibly fun to me, but if I do get through I'm like OMG NO! I WANT OUT! (lol wut)

... Sigh. Though, if I believe we got through for a reason, then I gotta believe that on that day it'll be God doing His thing through me rather than me doing it through myself.

... But maybe it's because I feel like this doesn't suit my style, though I love the idea of singing along to a rap. It's really fun and I love everything about it, but there's always this little thought that goes, "you know what? This isn't your style." I suppose I did know it from the start, given how my voice sounds like and all, but I was willing to give it a shot. I'm surprised because I enjoyed it.

Even if it isn't my style.

I don't regret auditioning, but I guess I'm just bloody nervous about going out of my comfort zone.

And I can't back out anyway, argh! Lol! Nono, I won't back out! It's a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity! Even if I don't know how to move in front of a standing mike, damnit. I'm just gonna groove.

Oh, that audition I went through all those years ago? My friend & I went as far as the finals... and it was one heaven of a harrowing experience, seriously. While it was enjoyable, I sure don't want to repeat it again.

Once this is over, I think I'll stick to choir for now. Lol.

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