Hi folks! I'm a girl who loves to imagine, to create, and to dream. I'm collecting poetic quotes, just because they're pretty, so feel free to send me any.
Also, if it isn't already obvious - I believe BB will be together in the end after Booth finds his brains!
The whole world can go and screw themselves; I'm going to play Pokemon and wait impatiently for Dragon Age II to come so I can marathon it. Oh, and mull over the benefits/disadvantages of getting a DS to catch up with the Pokemon series, because I've rediscovered my love of Pokemon, naturally.
We haven't actually submitted my final assignment yet, but in my head I'm already done. I'm not even gonna think about it anymore. LIFE HAS JUST BEGUN, BABY! Fanfictions, games, RPs and random stories - here I come!
Here's to our theme song, that has helped us thus far (though we didn't actually drop everything now at any point in time).
It's too bad. I just wish everything else would be nice and fine too, so we can all go back to those days before the shit happened. And it might be evil of me, but I choose to blame it on the one who caused it. Ah, that tiny vicious side of me... *quells*
Aww c'mon, the module isn't even gonna be part of my GPA! Why the heaven do I have to retake the test (and if I fail the retest, retake GEMs)? Pointless. It's just pointless. I mean sure, it'll look ugly on the certificate, but I bet that all people are gonna stare at is the freaking GPA. I'll probably even have to talk about what I actually studied in my 3 years of poly life despite the fact that it might be on the results slip.
But I should go back to mugging. This sucks. I should've just gone straight for biotechnology or game design and make my life easier - why did I even consider this module? At least for biotech those two years of biology might help a little. As for game design, well, it would actually be something I'd like. But no! I had to be all curious and naive and choose a GEM I've never even heard of in my whole life!
I was just quietly gazing at the little one's sleeping face. Its eyebrows are slightly frowning; if it's a nightmare, then please wake up.
I used to fear swimming and always hold back. Yes, the memories from that summer are coming back. Being pushed in my back, I finally learned how to swim. It all seems like yesterday.
I can hear a voice; it's showing me the direction I should go. Alone in the rustling wind, I am singing a song.
The little one is actually me. Without a doubt, it is me. My helpless feeling reflected in the mirror will become my unbeatable tomorrow.
Then, little by little, I will start to return to my childhood, to the days when you praised me for singing love songs, the meaning of which I had yet to understand.
When I look up into the sky, my voice gradually becomes full. In the rustling wind, you, too, should lightly float up with me.
I can hear a voice; it's showing me the direction I should go. Alone in the rustling wind, I am singing a song.
I've realized that my most precious one is right by my side.
When I look up into the sky, my voice gradually becomes full. In the rustling wind, you, too, should lightly float up with me.
I can hear a voice; it's showing me the direction I should go. Alone in the rustling wind, I am singing a song.
Chiisaki Mono
Lyrics: Miura Noriko
Music: Yamai Takai
Vocals: Asuca Hayashi
shizuka ni tada mitsumeteta chiisaki mono nemuru kao miken ni shiwa sukoshi dake yoseteru kowai yume nara me o samashite
mizu ga kowakute shirigomi shiteta ano natsu ga yomigaeru yo senaka osarete wa yatto oyogeta maru de kinou mitai desu
koe ga kikoeru yukubeki michi yubisashite iru sara sara nagaru kaze no naka de hitori watashi utatte imasu
chiisaki mono sore wa watashi watashi desu magire naku kagami no naka kokorobososa dake ga dare ni makenai ashita ni naru yo
soshite watashi wa osanai koro ni sukoshizutsu modotte yuku imi mo shirazu utau koi no uta o hometekureta ano hi ni
sora o ao geba michite kuru watashi no koe ga sara sara nagaru kaze no naka de kimi mo fuwari mai agare
koe ga kikoeru yukubeki michi yubisashite iru sara sara nagaru kaze no naka de hitori watashi utatte imasu
taisetsu na mono wa sugusoba ni aru sono koto ni kidzuita
sora o ao geba michite kuru watashi no koe ga sara sara nagaru kaze no naka de kimi mo fuwari mai agare
koe ga kikoeru yukubeki michi yubisashite iru sara sara nagaru kaze no naka de hitori watashi utatte imasu
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Just bawled my eyes out after hearing this song. Wow, I don't really know why either, but it's so touching! Don't you agree? *wipes tears*
I realize I'm doing a lot of tumblr lately. The posts are just too cute. And it's nice to blog & reblog one-liners every now and then.
Still wondering if I should order Magia... I mean, the song is kind of growing on me (is that seriously your voice, Hikaru?), but the single is so very expensive. Not to mention that I'm still waiting for Dragon Age 2. Maybe I should wait for Kalafina's next album instead. Which probably won't be coming soon, so...
AND OMG, DARKEST MERCY IS OUT!
Damnit Kinokuniya needs to stock DM fast! I can't wait to read the rest of the book after reading the first 8 chapters in the preview. Darn. Maybe I should check on Monday? Think the book will be here 3 days after its release date? *hopeful stare*
I might not always agree with some of my lecturers, but this time, I did... for once, anyway. She was talking about how painful it is when you desperately have to churn out something, and no matter how hard you try, it just won't come out.
The frustration is mind-killing, and it builds, it builds, keeps building... and then you break down, and start snapping at everyone. Your temper becomes as short as an eyelash, you start getting all depressed and moping around, the concept/episode/character is constantly dancing in your mind and going, haha, you can't figure this out!
It's the KILL STAB SHUT UP STOP TALKING NO GOTTA WRITE SOMETHING STOP STARING BLANK DOCUMENT WHY IS NOTHING COMING OUT SHIT SHIT SHIT kind of frustration.
And it got me thinking, you know, about that kind of frustration. It's a frustration and a kind of stress that doesn't show at all. All the gymnastics and mugging is in the mind, and sometimes it comes across as though you're not doing anything much, when your brain is actually ready to slop out of your ears and you want to claw at your face and start bawling (maybe not).
And you know how, when you tell people who have never written a concept in their whole life about how you're struggling with the side plot, and you need to fix the character, or you can't make an idea work, etc, they go, "... oh, okay." Or worse, "oh, really?"
Empathy has pretty much gone down the drain by then. So has patience.
No wonder I'm snapping at everyone these days.
And I suppose it might partially be PMS too, but oh well. How I wish the body could re-absorb its stuff... *mumble mumble*
Not to mention I'm starting to wonder why I care so much about a clique that I am, in all actuality, not part of (no Karkar, Stell & Peipei, this doesn't refer to our little cliques. I loveeee you girls!). Maybe it's because I want to be part of it, with all the nonsense and drama and stuff. It gets kind of frustrating in the end. Sure, I can offer the bystander's point of view (which is nicely neutral), but I'll never truly be in.
I'm not linguistically blind. I can't tell nuts about someone when they're talking, but writing is different. I know that tone when I see it; I know it from the words they use. And sometimes I end up wondering about certain things that aren't so nice. Yes, from a bystander's point of view, some things are truly ridiculous... and some are just unbelievable.
And yet, because that friend is important to me, I suppose I'll just stay and you know, quit thinking so much about things, even if I do wish we could all just go back to those times when the friendship hadn't changed and stuff.
Oh, here I am blogging instead of wracking my poor brain about a subplot. There goes.
I hate the pecha-kucha presentation style. I really, really do.
