I need a 24-hour 'holiday'.

I need a day where I can just laze around at home, read, rot, game a bit, reflect, share things with God, and seriously do nothing productive for 24 hours.

I need a day where it's just me, myself and I (and God I suppose) in my room, with no one else at home, singing songs to myself and doing the do-only-when-you're-alone-at-home kind of stuff.

Maybe I'm just weird, or different, but I can't take being constantly around people. It's draining. It makes me super irritated. It annoys me to no end when I don't have time by myself to gather my thoughts, iron out kinks and stuff.

It's frustrating to be around people all the time because they break your train of thought. They point out irrelevant things. And they do it all unknowingly. It's not that I blame them, or that I don't need interaction. I still do, but for heaven's sake - moderation please?

I can't live without my quiet time, damnit!

I mean, I still need friends and stuff, but I have not been alone at home for what feels like forever. It's frustrating. I have so many things I want to do - but that I wouldn't do in the presence of others, even if they're family. There's a part of my life nobody ever sees or will ever know - the things I do at home, alone.

And best of all? I enjoy it. These solitary times. In this world it's hard to disconnect completely. To be able to do so, albeit for just an hour or two - is a gift.

I hate it when someone's there jabbering away at me from 8am in the morning to 10pm in the night. That was one particular aspect I wasn't quite happy about at one certain event.

I like silence. It's deafening at times, yes, but I appreciate it. Solitary times help you put into perspective your friendships and relationships. It makes you realize just how important they are. It's the solitary times that can really grow you in terms of maturity.

But oh well. There's more interaction coming up. I won't ever hate interaction, but too much interaction easily annoys me.

Oh well. I guess I'll just go hug Floppy and squish Zippy later. Stuff toys are just sooooo adorable. They can't help but make you smile! (:

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