I suppose I shouldn't have joined the school choir.

I mean, it's fun and all, but when I think about church choir & school choir... I can't help but see the difference. And I guess I enjoy church choir much, much more. The way we do things. The way we're taught the art of singing. It's just different here, 'cos everyone does things the grace way, and God is always in the center of everything. That, perhaps, is what makes it so different, and so much more enjoyable.

And I probably just joined the school choir on a whim, because we hadn't had a service in like two weeks and I kind of missed choir, I guess.

Or maybe it's because in the school choir we prepare for like months before we so much as set one foot on the platform, but in church it's just... a 1 hour rehearsal and bam! P&W time! Lol.

And mistakes don't matter. We just laugh about it and move on. Even when the choir is like one beat faster than the worship leader, it doesn't matter. We just slow down and take it in our stride.

And what really sticks with you isn't the fact that you were up there, but a sudden, heightened consciousness of His presence and love. At least, that's what it feels like for me. When I go home after serving, I just know everything will work out because He's here with me & for me. Of course it may not stick with me all the way until the next cg/service, but deep down inside I know something's changing. As much as I might grumble and complain. Haha.

And I guess I'm too used to that. I'm too used to singing for Him, and knowing that every time we do that, our lives are changed forever, for the better. But in the school choir, such an exchange doesn't happen. A satisfaction from performing, yes, but it isn't life-changing.

Well, I guess I'll see how it turns out. But somehow I really, really don't want to go for school choir anymore.

Oh well. Upcoming (possible) blogskin! If only my desktop wasn't so jealous, I'd have completed it by now. Jealousy has led to the desktop refusing to work. I guess I've been using the lappy like almost everyday recently, but hey... I still love the desktop, y'know. Without it I can't play Oblivion, or DA, or use ImageReady! XD

Meh.

Labels: Life