Hi folks! I'm a girl who loves to imagine, to create, and to dream. I'm collecting poetic quotes, just because they're pretty, so feel free to send me any.
Also, if it isn't already obvious - I believe BB will be together in the end after Booth finds his brains!
I realize I tend to like the things that stand out/break conventions. And that the more people like something, the more I'm likely to dislike it. The result? I spend twice the time people take to find my fave stuff. That includes Bones, which is increasingly pissing me off because I want to watch it.
And I have a lot of catching up to do because I'm only at the beginning of season 3, plus I haven't watched season 1 yet, lol.
But the DVDs are selling at insane prices. As much as I love Bones I'm not willing to part with that kind of money just for - what - 15 eps? No way man. 49.90 for 15 eps. 39.90 for season 1. Unbelievable, guys, unbelievable. Inflation sucks.
Why in the world did I have to fall in love with Brennan, of all main characters? If I'd fallen in love with - say - one of CSI's protagonists, I might have one heck of an easier time watching it. But no, just like Kalafina, I had to go for something less well-known, something harder to find.
Well, perhaps it's something better.
WHATEVER. JUST BUFFER ALREADY YOU. GOOD HEAVENS. Best of all, it resets on its own, damnit. I've been loading this for an hour and I haven't gotten to 1/4 of the whole thing yet!
I'll be there by your side, In the land of twilight In your dream I will go Till we find the sunrise
You are lost in nightmare Deep in blue illusion One more kiss to wake you up Come be mine, you are mine
I will be there seekin' for liminality No destinations to see, I wander
In quiet places so dark as eternity I'm crying calling your name I'm searching for you
Dreaming in the land of twilight We are in the land of twilight Deep in blue eternity Search for liminality
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While I was happily googling stuff, I suddenly remembered that I'd actually wanted to listen to Liminality. Just never got round to it. And so I went to listen, and... here I go again.
God, the live is a complete replica of the album version. This totally shames those groups who need like 10 singers just to produce one pathetic song... :P Hmm, no offense, but. *is whacked*
Every time a new idea jumps into my head, I go omg this is freaking awesome! I'm gonna develop this now! and do just that.
By the time I finish character creation/setting and actually settle down to write the story, I end up thinking about another idea, and then going omg this is much more awesome!I'm gonna work on this instead!
And hence the cycle repeats itself. I have a few concepts sitting in my folder, most of which are incomplete. Well, my nanowrimo plot is the one story that has managed to hit chapter 10, but after that a guild pulled itself out of nowhere and I know nuts about guild hierarchy/conflicts. And I have no idea where that whole guild business came from. Plus I know nuts about politics. So I decided to temporarily set aside that plot. My "temporarily" lasts anywhere between a week and... years.
Yes, freaking years. Ha.
Instead, I went back to thinking about the one story I finished way back in secondary school (and which is so crappy I don't even dare to talk about it).
Then the entire concept revamped itself based solely on the title. While I was in the toilet, again. Don't you just love toilets? Ideas just drop from heaven when you're in there.
So here I am with a new idea that I'm omg-so-happy-to-work-on, but oh man, I need to finish something - and not have accumulating half-finished plots lying around in my computer. I keep thinking this plot will be the one I'll actually finish, and then when a new idea comes along I start thinking that idea will be the one I'll finish, and on and on.
I think I should create a character who will win my heart. Then I'll see the damn story to the end, haha. Except I have no idea what kind of character will win my heart! And I haven't exactly found what gets me on a roll yet. Sometimes it's music, sometimes it's purely just inspiration, and sometimes it's the fact that I'm writing a scene I've been yearning to write.
Some writers need a plot, some writers write based on character, some writers don't plot at all and just write, some writers need to go through a 2-hour prep before actually sitting down to write... I wonder what's my muse. I've tried plotting, no plotting, character-based... well, I haven't tried random scene writing yet, but it just feels weird to do that.
At least I know I tend to work towards key scenes in the story, and I often think of an ending before a beginning (so starting is the hardest, and the middle is harder, but the climax is super easy 'cos I know just what's going to happen).
Good grief. Oh well, I've lots of time to try out stuff - better start focusing on the presentation tomorrow. Zomg.
I have this very bad feeling about my EP research paper.
It's due on Friday and while I've started on it, I'm nowhere near completing it yet. And here I am blogging, facebooking, resisting the urge to play more Pangya, & trying not to stare at the Bones DVD (OH-SO-TEMPTING TO WATCH). And I could be watching Bones now, if I hadn't watched it the whole of yesterday night and decided to forget about my EP research paper (which was a lot easier to do).
So. I have this very bad feeling about this.
I will probably end up in a complete psychological mess on Thursday night, where I'll run around the room, clawing at my hair, freaking my eyeballs out of their sockets and going, "DEADLINE TOMORROW DEADLINE TOMORROW DEADLINE TOMORROW DEADLINE TOMORROW DEADLINE TOMORROW DEADLINE TOMORROW DEADLINE TOMORROW DEADLINE TOMORROW -"
And on Friday, I'll come to school looking like I just stepped out of L4D, at the same time having a massive psychological breakdown because I just finished the research paper last night. Which would approximately be - who knows? - 13 hours before the deadline. Only because I rushed.
... Nah, kidding. My mind doesn't die so easily. I think.
And then it's not the end! More projects! More discussions! More presentations! More planning! This world sucks man. I'm gonna create a character and make her save the world instead of going through the mundane things of life. Uh, when I find the time.
So, I'll finish up that research paper. Soon. After this. After that.
Okay, I take that back. Researching things you can't care less about kills. Researching things you find interesting is alright.
And look! Here I am writing a post instead of sitting down and seriously poring over the immense feed of information from the World Wide Web regarding a TV series. Naturally the former is much more engaging, but the latter is absolutely compulsory unless I want to screw my life. Which I do not. But I really am not interested in watching clips from 8 seasons of said TV series just for the sake of comparison. I didn't know you could do so much research on a freaking TV show.
Okay, I'm just bitching now. Ignore this entire post and pretend I wrote this when I was drunk.
At least I still have a few more days... which doesn't equal to many hours after subtracting all the other necessary events.
So yes. School is meant to be awesome. Actually, school is awesome.
... Projects aren't so awesome.
ALRIGHT BACK TO RESEARCH. AWW CRAP JUST LET ME BE A WRITER ALREADY. Let me think, let me dream, let me imagine, let me create. D: My world is a world where horses can fly and giant spiders roam magical forests. My world isn't this mundane realm that is going to the dumps. Or has already gone.
I'm sure Rapunzel wrote some interesting things while she was locked up in that tower of hers.
Except you can't survive if you're just going to do that! Or so they say. Pffffft, bullshit. I hate this big, bad world that is screwed ten thousand times over. Go on, kill more trees and whatever. Global warming is a process you can't stop anymore.
Yes, I am mostly blogging random Kalafina nonsense nowadays, because school (and concepts, some project-related, some solely because I have a masochistic urge to torture myself by adding more personal goals to my plate of concepts-to-think-of-for-school) has leeched most of my writing ability. Therefore, I am incapable of writing a reflective post. At the moment.
Nah, I'm kidding. I'm just lazy and I don't have much to blog about. Watching Bones. Lovin' it. Knowing I should move on to other TV series because I'm watching in the name of homework.
And I would really ramble more, but I have to get offline now, and I'm going to do just that.
I haven't listened to this song since March, to be honest. And when I finally listened to it again (by accident really. Don't you just love iTunes' shuffle function?), I was like... whoa. How did I fall out of love with this song?
Of course, it remains the theme song for the relationship between Sora and Gray. For me, at any rate. If I'm writing a scene where their budding romance is involved, this song is either playing on iTunes, or in my head. But I never quite took the time to appreciate the bass, the harmonies, and well, the expressions in general, like I did when I first heard the song. And doing so has made me fall in love with it all over again.
But oh, speaking of which, my current playlist for my attempt at writing a novel, as of this date, comprises only Kalafina songs. And one FJ song (this one!). All Yuki Kajiura's compositions. Win, yes? :D I can't believe the main characters' individual theme songs are all sung by Kalafina. Talk about diversity.
It's just as well, though... can't imagine myself listening to anything else 56 times in a row just to write out one character's POV. :P
ALRIGHT, LOOK AT THE WORD COUNT I'VE KICKED UP HERE. GOING BACK TO NANOWRI - but wait, I still have research to do. CAs are just awesome. Really.
I was hoping I could hit 10k words tonight. But I guess not, hahaha. Anyway, minus the original 6914 words, I've written only about 3k+ words. Still hit the daily target at any rate... and yes, I decided to try NaNoWriMo. Because Carmen and Megan were awesome brainwashe - nah, kidding.
Because I decided to continue a novel I was procrastinating, I have an original 6914 words that was written before Nov 1st. So my actual goal is 57k words, I guess. Omg.
I was just thinking I wouldn't get the full 30 days of Nov to write since there'll be stuff, and choir, and dinner, that takes up a whole day (meaning I'd have to compensate for the lost words on that day).
But when will I ever have a totally free Nov? So I thought, screw that, and just do it. There's no penalty for failing to hit the 50, 000 word limit anyway. But it's a personal challenge that I'd love to complete. Even if it takes me more than one try, ohohoho.
And yes, they're right, if I can hold a complete first draft of a novel by 30 Nov, all that finger pain, brain pain and inspiration sourcing would be worth it. Ten times over. It'll be worth the world to a writer.
And oh, lookie here! I've just written like 200+ words' worth of a blog post! I could've written 200+ more words for my novel! LOL.
I shall not blog anymore for this month (this is a lie. You will see a post sooner or later). I shall devote all my laptop time to writing that novel. I shall refrain from getting Fable III until Nov 30 (or get it and pass it to mum to keep). I shall NOT touch G4. And I will touch my PSP, but only when I can't get on the laptop, lol.
GOOD HEAVENS 57K WORDS I'VE NEVER WRITTEN THAT MUCH BEFORE OH MAN. :D
