Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Muses #02
Karma
Ever17 -the out of infinity-
Composed by: KID
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Beautifully sad piano song. I swear I was going to bawl there and then when this song started playing in Tsugumi's ending.
I was reading a slew of Brennan/Booth fluff on fanfiction.net. It made me all happy and warm and fuzzy on the inside - hot damn this is how they should be - but then I remembered that someone mentioned season 5's finale was going to be a tearjerker. And that apparently Brennan rejects Booth's proposal at some point. I haven't even finished season 3 and I'm scared to know what happens in their relationship.
They're made for each other, they are! D:
Um, back to Brennan/Booth fanfics. I happened to have Karma on loop when I read some of the more angsty fics (with either of them dying and the other regretting like shit) AND IT WAS REALLY SAD! Sigh. I hope they get together in the end. Brennan/Booth might be my first ever OTP.
I have always refrained from pairing characters, but those two need to be together man! Really!
I will so write Brennan/Booth fluff once I catch up with the series.
That said, I had the time to compare my fanfics with my original works.
And I realized the quality between the two is incredibly shocking. My fanfics are much better than my original works. That's sad. D: I guess I'm not really ready for original works yet. I probably can't develop characters well enough for them to carry a whole story on their own. Doesn't mean I'm not working on any concepts now... I'll just work on them, and next time I take a peek at them, I might have the experience to revise it into something workable.
... But really, how the heck did I write those fanfics? D:
Now I feel like I've totally lost whatever I had when I wrote fanfiction, especially the Dragon Age one. I feel like I've dropped a great deal when it comes to writing standards. Or is it because of the nature of school assignments? D:
I still had whatever it was before the 2nd semester. After taking that part-time job in Oct, I feel like I've lost something important, related to writing. It's the thing that I still had when I wrote that Zevran/Surana fanfic (which I read today and went, wtf? What happened to me?)
I dunno. I hope it comes back, because whatever it is, it's important. It's related to expression, to word choice, to description. I have no idea what it is. It's definitely not passion because I still have that. Jesus, I want it (whatever writing muse I've lost) back!