I've finally killed everything that needs to be killed on my list of die-die-must-finish things to do before the end of the break, except that one, elusive project. Well, more like the idea for that project is elusive. I guess I just can't think in non-serious terms.

Sure, I've drawn on experiences and I've tested out a few ideas/suggestions even. But none of them seem to fit the requirements. I've never faced such a massive block in creating a story, where my mind is just a complete blank when I think about it. Maybe it's because the whole concept of writing a story deeply embedded in our current reality and having a non-life threatening conflict is new to me.

I mean, I have like zero interest in romance and family novels. They just seem really angsty and characters tend to mope around in those. But in a fantasy story, the stakes are upped way beyond what reality offers. Characters talk in terms of their lives, of the lives of others', not just the relationship with their family, or boyfriend/girlfriend. When these characters come to a final resolution, it has much more effect than the resolution of a character in a romance or family novel.

That's just my opinion, but it's why I love fantasy. The unreal makes the real much more precious. Although of course, sometimes you end up wishing you could be that one person with so much power, etc. XD

... Wait, back to my original point. My interests make writing a non-fantasy story incredibly difficult for me. Which sucks, seeing as that's what I have to write. Shit.

Lord, You seriously have to help me on this. I have a week left - well, give or take a few days - and I have practically zero ideas in my head. But I'm believing what pastor said on Saturday. That what You promise, You'll do. And You promised that I don't have to worry about tomorrow, because You clothe even the flowers and feed the birds everyday, and You'll do that and so much more for me. You promised You'll take care of my every need because You love me that much.

So I'm just gonna give this into Your hands. And I'm just gonna believe that when the idea comes, it will be supernatural, like a drop of heavenly rain from the sky.

But please, not when I'm in the toilet doing big business. I don't want to scramble around for something to write the idea on, or run out half-naked just to grab my phone! :D

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